Second time father feelings.

I really romanced having my first child. So inspired by emotion and the idea of becoming a father.

It feels different now.

I’m different.

I believe the last two years of initiation into fatherhood has put a lot into perspective. Has made life more real. Changed me.

In a few months my wife will be giving birth to our second son… and I wonder…

How can I love another as I do Rio?

Is my heart not at capacity?

How will I show up differently? As a father and a husband.

What new lessons does this boy have for us?

I’m more curious and open than ever. I’m less nervous, less worried, less stressed. More in my heart, excited and more prepared.

Rio and Jasmine have had this effect on me.They have given me confidence and a greater capacity to enjoy the wonders of life - presence in the now.

The greatest wealth is to be a father. Every day is rich with new experiences and seeing the old with new eyes.

One big change this time is calling in more pleasure and joy. I’m not going through the strange fleeting bitterness as I did before …I am not in my head. It feels really good to be in my body and heart. I’m praying Jasmine can experience more pleasure for her second birth at our home.

So, a different romance has come to be. One rooted in experience. The knowing of what it takes.

Fatherhood takes everything.

I’m happy to give it my all.

I am ready to cross this threshold once again. See you on the other side.